An Apology

When I first started writing, I wanted it to be about the passion of living for Christ. I wanted to help people live the life that God had planned for them.  I thought, like all human plans, God intervened, He now wanted me to spend my time trying to help people cope with today. I was wrong.

I took my eye off of the ball; I got distracted by everyday issues and became nearsighted. Like a bout of vertigo, I thought the world had shifted, but it was all in my head. It wasn’t God who intervened to change my thinking.

“The best-laid schemes of Mice and Men oft go awry, And leave us nothing but grief and pain, For promised joy!” – Robert Burns

One of the things I have become acutely aware of is that everything on the front page of the news today is temporary. Our next President will not be in office 100 months from now. COVID-19 will be a history note as we deal with whatever is new. Unfortunately, new injustice, lurking in the dark recesses of society as it has been for all of written history, will replace today’s injustice. All of our contemporary concerns will dissolve. But one thing will remain constant, God’s love for all of humanity.

Back to Basics

Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

God’s plan for our lives is the point on the horizon to which we should all navigate. This promise is the guiding light in the world of darkness. Anything that distracts you from this path is not from the Lord. Anytime you start to believe evil is winning, or even making headway, you have taken your eye off the target. We aren’t the ones that handle overcoming the sins of the world. We are not capable. Our job is to be the person God planned for us to be. If each of us achieves that goal, we will change the world.

Matthew 6:33, “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”

 Seek first – God did not give us suggestions or guidelines. He gave us commands. If our thoughts and conversations do not follow His command, then we are on the wrong track. If we put contemporary issues in front of seeking God first, we have fallen into a trap. We have allowed ourselves to be shanghaied into serving another. Dark forces use worldly issues, crafted in Biblical principles, to distract us. They divert our passion away from chasing God.

Matthew 7:15, “Watch out for false prophets. They come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ferocious wolves.”

It is all too easy to give in to worldly fear. We live here and must cope with what it throws at us. I know, my life is no different than yours. I yearn for security here on earth until the day that God takes me home. I forget that I have that. God commands me not to fear for my life and worldly comfort.

Matthew 10:28, “Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.

Our Reality

The foundation of our thinking is also a command. God does not give us the latitude to pick and choose. He makes it perfectly clear.

John 14:15, “If you love me, keep my commands.”

How can God command that? Does He not understand the world in which I live? Yes, He does, He created it. He understands it’s weaknesses, it’s flaws, and it’s darkness. But he also created the light. He promised us that if we discard all of our worldly concerns, he will cover us and protect us.

Philippians 4:6-7, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

I got distracted, and I apologize for that. I don’t want you to be distracted. If the issues don’t directly affect God’s plan for your life, let it go. Maybe this is the time that will open doors that have previously been closed. God can, and will, use this time. But He will use it for His Kingdom, not anyone else’s. He will use it to forwards His message of peace and reconciliation to Him, not the latest talking head. He will use it to encourage and build, not break down and divide.

Chase God, not man.

John 14:27, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”

Where is God in your Neighborhood?

My question to you is this: Where does God live in your neighborhood? Have you met Him in passing at a gathering? Have you engaged in small talk to pass the time? Are you so busy creating yourself that you haven’t taken the time to know and love your creator?

This post is a little different for me; it’s more of an allegory than my typical posts. It is a journey through a broken and lonely world that ends in warmth, redemption, and love. We all travel this same road. Some of us are fortunate enough to arrive at the destination faster than others. Unfortunately, some of us never arrive.

I see in my head this timeline of my life stretching from left to right across the horizon. At the far left is the knowledge that God wrote my story before I came into existence. This story is God’s pre-story of my life. His account of my life was to prosper, filled with hope and a future. But as I move along the timeline toward the right, my life story plays out as I lived it. It goes something like this:

I knew God lived in my neighborhood, but I didn’t know which house was His.

As a child, I went to church and knew there was a God, but He was probably busy with some of the other 4 billion people on earth or maybe building the rest of the universe. I wasn’t sure what He looked like or where He lived, or what He did for a living. I didn’t care; I was busy creating my life.

I knew God lived in my neighborhood as I saw Him around once in a while

Later in life, I would see something that reminded me God was there. It was in the clear azure blue skies, the crisp fall mornings, and in the full moon perched precariously above a mountain range. It was a kind voice or a gentle gesture.  I saw God in the complexity of the world He created that seemed to flow so seamlessly. It was like marveling over the beauty and craftsmanship of a Lamborghini Sián Roadster without ever having met Ferruccio Lamborghini.

I knew God lived in my neighborhood because  He talked to some of the neighbors.

Still, later I met neighbors who had met Him and talked with Him. He even did things for them. I didn’t understand why or how, but they were convinced. I thought you had to be His friend to get His time. He seemed like a nice enough guy but had to be busy most of the time. I envied that they knew Him but felt out of His league.

 I knew God lived in my neighborhood because we talked from time to time.

Finally, a friend introduced me to Him. He seemed open and receptive; our conversations were superficial, mostly me complaining about something I wanted. Maybe I asked Him why He didn’t fix something, but I never allowed myself to get close enough to Him to see him work. I wanted Him to help me but didn’t expect it to amount to much as I hadn’t done much for Him. Generally, you don’t get something without giving something.

I know God lives in my neighborhood because He took me in.

Then one stormy, rainy night, my house burned down. I stood by the curb in the cold, dark rain and watch the smoke rise. The life I had so carefully crafted came to an end. The things I have stored up for myself vanished. It was God who was there to invite me to live in His home. I lost a house, a shell of myself created to satisfy my worldly lust. What God gave me was a home filled with love and compassion. I have lived there since.

1 Corinthians 3:12-15 “Now if anyone builds on the foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw— each one’s work will become manifest, for the Day will disclose it, because it will be revealed by fire, and the fire will test what sort of work each one has done. If the work that anyone has built on the foundation survives, he will receive a reward. If anyone’s work is burned up, he will suffer loss, though he himself will be saved, but only as through fire.”

Great stories always start with great tragedies. We all like the overcoming-all-odds ending, but we skip past the overcoming part. The overcoming takes away from the thrill of victory. If we have to look at the cost, the prize seems a little tainted. We don’t like asking ourselves if the prize was worth the cost. We want to rejoice.

When we come out the other end after a traumatic encounter with our broken world, getting to the end seems less daunting than when we were in the middle of it all.

Where does God live in your neighborhood?

Many of us live ordinary lives that don’t strike us as tragedies. We pay our bills and are kind to animals. We try not to be overly angry, but there are many stupid people in the world. We help when we can, but we have a responsibility for our future too. Life is a compromise.

Job 4:19 “How much more those who live in houses of clay, whose foundation is in the dust, who are crushed like a moth.”

That is the tragedy. When we surrender our will to the author of our lives, we no longer live with compromise. We live in the fullness of the life He created. Don’t wait for a storm. Decide to trust your life and all of its decisions to Christ.

Move out of your house into His home.

Ephesians 2:19-22, “So then you are no longer strangers and aliens, but you are fellow citizens with the saints, and are of God’s household, having been built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Christ Jesus Himself being the cornerstone, in whom the whole building, being fitted together, is growing into a holy temple in the Lord.”

Casting Out Fear

Fear causes us to live small lives and miss out on opportunities that God puts in front of us. Fear scrunches us into a little ball of mediocracy. Fear stops us from “being all we can be.”

Isaiah 41:10, “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

There will always be moments when fear is the natural response to worldly things that happen around us. But I am not thinking of the life-threatening events when fear overwhelms; I’m talking about the day to day encounters. I’m talking about things like fear of failure and fear of rejection, and fear of humiliation. What I am talking about is living a life worth living. I am talking about having the courage to stretch your boundaries, experience God’s power, and live the story He wrote for you.

1 John 2:15, “Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them.”

Formula for Change

How do we get from who we are to who God made us to be? A formula called “The Beckhard-Harris Change Equation” states that the value of the new state has to be greater than the value of the old state plus the cost of change before change can effectively occur.

Beckhard-Harris would say, Your dissatisfaction with the life you are currently living, plus a vision of what the new life would look like, plus knowledge of how to get to that new life, has to be greater than what you feel you are giving up.

Let’s put this in Christian terms; The value of an eternity with Christ has to be of greater value to you than that of your current life on earth, plus the cost you put on changing. Until we realize that the experience God has written for us is so much better than the life we have planned for ourselves, we will never reach our true potential and will always live desperate lives. If you are a slave to fear, this equation is out of balance. If your vision of a Christ-centered life is blurred, you won’t move forward.

1 John 2:16, “For everything in the world-the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—comes not from the Father but the world.”

Our Current State

We have to accept that we live broken lives. Much of the stress and dysfunction we experience daily is not life; it is life without Christ. We have become so accustom to comparing the quality of our life with the lives around us that we have missed how broken those lives are. It is not about being less dysfunctional than the Jones. The bar is a lot higher than that. Troubles and challenges will come, we know that, it is how we respond to those events that defines our experience on earth and it’s eternal significance.

The Desired State

Now we have to come to believe that life with Christ is a life worth fighting for. Spending eternity  with the author of the universe is exceptional in and of itself, but as a cowboy once said “I’m not afraid of being dead, it’s the dying that worries me.” We still live on a blue spinning orb. We still have to get up every morning and live. Our desired state has to include God’s plan for us while we are here. God made us; he understands what we are experiencing. God created us not just to survive but to thrive. He did not put us here to see what we could endure. God created us to blossom and grow. He created us to be light in the darkness.

Taking the First Step

Once we see the vision of what life could look like, we need to create a plan to achieve it. We have to know our first step. Once we know it, we have to commit to taking it. Each of us is dealing with our own set of fears. Each of us will attack this a little differently. All of us should have the same objective; get in synch with God’s plan. Some may join a bible study. Some aren’t there yet, what they need is a close Christian friend that can help guide them. All of us need prayer and support through the scriptures. For change to take place you have to take the first step.

Matthew 11:30, “For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

Change is more about believing in the results than putting in the effort. Change is more about having the faith to let God lead than making an effort to take the lead.

What did Jesus say?

John 14:27, “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”

Matthew 6:34, “Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

Isaiah 43:1, “But now, this is what the LORD says— he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine.”

The Psalmist said, “I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.”

Our greatest fear should not be what the world around us fears, but we should fear the lost opportunity to be truly happy living the life God has planned for us.

Don’t be afraid of what God asks you to do; embrace it. More than just embracing it, thirst for it. Make it your mission to stretch your experiences, learn more, be more; grow into a genuine person of God.

Psalm 37:4-14, “ Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will do this:  He will make your righteous reward shine like the dawn, your vindication like the noonday sun.”

Life Worth Living

God wants your heart to burst with Joy. He wants to fill you with His spirit to where you can scarcely breathe. He wants you to hate sleep at night in anticipation of what the morning will bring. He wants you to live a life of purpose and meaning. He does not want you to fear the world. He has already overcome the world.

1 John 5:5, “Who is it that overcomes the world? Only the one who believes that Jesus is the Son of God.”

Waterproof Your Boat

Ships don’t sink because of the water around them; they sink because of the water in them. Don’t let what is going on around you get inside you.

Isaiah 43:2 “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.”

As we approach election day, the volume of absurdity crescendos until it envelopes the important. I thought about this statement made by a Taoist Priest. “Chaos only exists for those who do not understand.” Chaos exists in the minds of those whose view is earthly and finite. The world can become a maddening, ever-changing, and endless pursuit of meaning. When you let the noise around you become the noise within you, you sink to fear, uncertainty, and despair.

Jeremiah 25:32, “Thus says the Lord of hosts, Behold, evil is going forth from nation to nation, and a great storm is being stirred up from the remotest parts of the earth.”

We have a God that loves us unconditionally. We have a God that wrote the story of our existence. We have a God that is both omnificent and omnipresent. When we start thinking that our future is in others’ hands, we have lost sight of what matters. Christians are not, and never will be, the victim of random chance or evil forces. Our environment maybe, but we will not.

When we allow worldly thinking to seep into our inner thoughts, we start to sink. When we allow the words of others to dictate our response, we begin to sink. When we rationalize our reaction based on the actions of others, we start to sink. When we let an earthly event poke a hole in the bulkhead of our existence, we sink.

Proverbs 1:27-29, “when disaster comes over you like a storm, when trouble strikes you like a whirlwind, when pain and trouble overwhelm you. Then you will call to me, but I will not answer. You will look for me, but you will not find me. It is because you rejected knowledge and did not choose to respect the Lord.”

I am starting to see the world differently. God, through the indwelling of the Holy Spirit, made me His ark. The choice animals that I allowed in are; Christian friends, a welcoming church community, daily and weekly scripture readings, Bible study, and prayer. The Gospel is my bulkhead; bible verses are the caulk between the planks. The water will rise around me, but I will be safe.

Psalm 107:29, “He caused the storm to be still so that the waves of the sea were hushed.

In the middle of the tempest of life, I must fight the urge to open a window to take in a worldly view. In doing so, I may let water in. Do it enough times, and I start to sink. Life will rage on. There will always be another storm, but I must stay safe.

Matthew 8:26, “He said to them, “Why are you afraid, you men of little faith?” Then He got up and rebuked the winds and the sea, and it became perfectly calm.”

Being safe is not becoming ambivalent to the world around us; it is about not letting that world become us. We serve the world with love and compassion as Christ serves us. We help individuals find the shipwright that builds boats that can never sink. Remember, it is not about changing the world; it is about changing the people in the world, one person at a time; when that happens, the world changes.

2 Corinthians 1:4, “who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”

Christ has built an invincible armada that no power on earth can destroy. We are indestructible as long as we do not let the water in.

Joshua 23:9, “For the Lord has driven out great and strong nations from before you; and as for you, no man has stood before you to this day.”

Live for What Matters

You are blessed when you become content with who and what you are because it is only then that you receive everything you ever really wanted. It is in that moment that you truly become free to live a life worth living.

Psalm 37:4, “Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

Most of the struggle we have with other people is a struggle within ourselves. It is a struggle to have meaning and value. It is a struggle to be seen and heard. The struggle is not a question of who is right and who is wrong; it is a spiritual struggle to matter in a noisy, confusing and increasingly evil world.

James 4:2, “You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet, but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God.”

God had made each of us uniquely gifted to live the story He had created for us before we even came into existence. I used to think of that story, much like a novel. It has a plot with antagonists and protagonists; it has a journey and an overcoming. Most of all, it had a happy ending, at least mostly. This story is written in the context of the world in which I lived. The decisions I made about love and jobs, and destinations all had a specific impact on the plotline. I could deviate from the original plot, but then the story lost continuity and rhythm.

But then I started to realize that my assumption was flawed. Maybe the story wasn’t so much about the worldly aspect of  my life, but spiritual? What if the story written by God, especially for me, was to glorify Him in all that I do? What if I was free to choose my path, but the intent remained the same; every step was an opportunity to glorify God?

Now, this new thesis has a caveat. The caveat is that God gave me a unique set of skills and attributes that are to be used to glorify Him, such that a specific path is better than all other ways. But the intent stays the same for all of us; that is to glorify God in what we become. Some paths give us challenges outside of our natural gifts and cause us to stumble. Some people make us struggle with our identity and cause us to take our eyes off of the original intent. We need to stay focused not on our talents and gifts, but God.

Matthew 5:9, “Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.”

We are to be peacemakers. We are to take strife and conflict out of the world, not to be at war with it. We intend to attract others to seek God by them wanting the peace and contentment in which we live. We want everyone to be called a child of God.

John 1:12, “But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, even to those who believe in His name,”

God made us in His image. He made us so that He could enjoy communion with us. We must learn to be content with who God made us because; He created us for a specific purpose that no other can accomplish. He did not design us to compete with His other creations. They all have a purpose. All are meant to glorify their maker, each in their own way.

Genesis 1:27, “God created man in His own image, in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them”

We are to be led by the spirit to use the talents and gifts attributed explicitly to each of us to glorify God. We do not have to fight for meaning or value; they have already been established. If we do not have the right hair color, height or weight, job, education, or whatever your vice is, it’s OK. You are perfect in God’s eyes just as you are. He made you. The greatness in you comes from the contentment of being just who you are. Everything else is dust-to-dust. Live for what matters.

Are we actively seeking God’s kingdom in all that we do and say?

Romans 8:14, “For all who are being led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God.”

Nameless, Unremembered Acts of Kindness

“The best portion of a good man’s life is his little, nameless, unremembered acts of kindness and of love.” – William Wordsworth

“Nameless, unremembered acts of kindness and love.” are these ever little? Maya Angelou said it best in her award-winning book “Why the Caged Bird Sings,” “At the end of the day people won’t remember what you said or did, they will remember how you made them feel.” In the future, we have forgotten the tiff or the argument or the strife, but we remember the hurt. Similarly, songs of our youth bring us great joy, not because of the lyrics or tune, but because of the emotion of that time wafting back into our memory. We do not remember who we were with or what we were doing, but we remember how we felt.

John McAlister was one of the great men in my life. I knew him for a very short time through work; he was an older man of about fifty, and I was in my early twenties. He spoke hard truth to me with kindness. I ruthlessly drove to prove myself in everything. I was a go-fast kind of kid. It was never my intention to mistreat others; I didn’t know they were there. I ran over them like a fullback on the two-yard line. John would remind me; to be great, I had to understand and appreciate others around me. They would take me farther than I could bring myself.

Proverbs 11:17,” A man who is kind benefits himself, but a cruel man hurts himself.”

Years later, I heard the African proverb “to go fast, go alone: to go far, go together.” and John immediately came to mind. I think of him often, although I cannot recall a single conversation. I do hope I will see him again. John is a permanent tattoo on my heart.

Luke 6:35, “But love your enemies, and do good, and lend, expecting nothing in return, and your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, …”

Today this verse comes to mind, not because I have enemies, but because I have friends I sometimes treat like enemies. Some of my friends are interesting characters, some experience bad days or have strange passions. There are times when my reactions to these oddities are less than loving. Generally, it happens when I am low on emotional energy. As an introvert, my batteries have to be recharged regularly, or my responses become, let us say, unfiltered.

Epictetus is famous for saying’, “It’s not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters.” It is quoted so often that it has become a cliché. Paul says it in a more meaningful way. We cannot control what happens to us, but we can control how we react to it. Much like Luke, the critical element is to love.

Ephesians 4:2, “Always be humble and gentle. Be patient with each other, making allowances for each other’s faults because of your love.”

Love, what an incredible emotion. There is nothing more exhilarating than being overtaken by the tsunami called love.  As humans, we crave it as much as the air we breathe. If this thing called love is what drives us, why do we keep it from others? Why, in an unfiltered moment, do I revert away from love, not toward it? I don’t know; pride, ego, downright meanness. It is one of the flaws of a fallen world; we inflict pain to avoid pain. It is a thing I have spent many a prayerful night over.

I do know this; always try to demonstrate love. For me, it is easier to do something then say something. Maybe that is a guy thing, or perhaps it is just a Tomme thing.

1 John 3:18, “Little children, let us not love in word or talk but in deed and in truth.

I am human, I am flawed, and I am trying to get better. That is all any of us can do. Chase God until there is not a fiber of your being that isn’t screaming out in pure joy. Make every moment count like it was your last; it might be. In that unfiltered moment that will come, call on the God that loved you first to help you love others. Channel the exhilaration of being loved into loving others. Remember you were made in the image of God.

Micah 6:8, “He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?”

Love; Falling into the Great Abyss

This morning I struggle with great truth. I have the joy of being chosen to serve people that God has set aside for great things. The love that God speaks through me to them is a love I covet for myself. It is an amazing, burning love; it is so deep and sincere. It exists not for flattery or vanity or self. These people will impact God’s kingdom and a way that I could only hope. I am not lessor for their greatness; I’m just not them. God has His plan for me. Mine is no less relevant or meaningful. I feel His love for these people, and it overwhelms me.

I was meant to be in their lives. It was part of God’s plan for each of us. What they are doing I could never do, it is not my gift, but I love it. When they doubt, God gives me a word or two that builds them back up. You see, they are very good at choosing joy. They are good at walking through the pain and hard times to come out the other end as an encourager. But some of them seldom have the welling in their heart that explodes into uncontrollable joy. This grieves God.

1 John 4:16, “And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God and God in them.”

God doesn’t want us to spend our lives choosing joy. He wants us to experience it. God wants us to feel the love He has for us. He wants us to love as He loves. He knows to do that we have to experience pain along the way.

1 John 4:19, “We love because he first loved us.”

To guard against that pain is to resign yourself to choosing joy, not experiencing it. Do you have the courage to love like God? What type of love does it take to endure the humiliation and pain of the cross? What does it take to be rejected by those you love most and have come to save? What does it take to love so deeply and so purely and still face their scorn?

John 3:16, “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.”

Do you have that courage? Will you allow yourself to be vulnerable enough to ride that roller coaster? Can you face the pain without anger or resentment?

I have to tell you that when God speaks to me about this, it’s incredible. I want to be them. I want to be loved and love as they are. But you see, I see my failings, I see my sin, my shame. I see the dark shadow in the mirror in front of me and say no, that is not for me.

I allow another greater sin. I authorize the evil one to blind my eyes. I believe that God’s love is only for the deserving and the great. A man like me can never be loved like that.

If I give you one thing this morning and this one thing sticks in your brain, know this: God loves you like that. God loves you with a passion and a purity that defies description. It will overwhelm your soul. It does not matter your past. It does not matter who you think you are. What matters is what God knows you to be.

This morning I am glad that God does not allow me to determine His love for me. I am blessed that I don’t get to set the boundaries. I am thankful that He does not see me as I see myself.

Folks, put aside the old self and allow God’s love to wash over you like a high tide. Fill your heart with desperation and longing for even more. Send your senses to the brink, to the edge of the great abyss, and fall in love. Feel the fear and thrill of being uncontrollably loved. Allow God to love you as no person can or ever will. You will become an addict and will never be the same.

I’m working on that. God has shown me the abyss, but I have not chosen to fall into it. I want to more than anything. I’m afraid that I am not worthy. That is why these people are in my life; to teach me that I am.

Romans 8:38, “And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love”.

Root Cause

The root cause of every sin and conflict in our lives is spiritual warfare. Whenever I feel envy or jealousy, it is because I have forgotten that God made me in His image. Whenever I feel lost or abandoned, I have forgotten that all things work for God’s good. Whenever I feel fear or anxiety, I have forgotten that God has a plan for me to prosper, not destroy.

Genesis 1:27, “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.”

Romans 8:28, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

Jeremiah 29:11, “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

In the middle of the battle, it is easy to lose sight of the enemy. The struggle becomes about preservation and protection; we lose sight of the victory. We fight to survive; we fight for the right to exist and continue; we lose sight for whom and what we are fighting.

When we have lost our job, we focus on paying bills and feeding our family and ourselves. When we lose a loved one or suffer through debilitating pain, we focus on relief and comfort. When someone betrays us for another, or we get passed over for a promotion, we want confirmation of our self-worth. We become focused on the short term, not eternity; this is human nature. It is the way of the world. It is who we became after the fall.

Getting a quick new job or a new love may bring immediate comfort , but it also might not be the the right solution. In the long run is can mask the underlying problem that will soon come back. It is a placebo that mimics relief, only to let you down later.

I would suggest that if we could take a deep breath, step back from the immediate for a second, we might see a bigger plan. We might see the spiritual battle raging around us. We might see the immediate solution does not bring lasting peace; it brings temporary relief. We might see that God can and will use this very moment to enrich our lives beyond our dreams.

John 1:45-46, “Can any good thing come out of Nazareth?” Philip said to him, “Come and see.”

Can any good thing come out of Nazareth? Can any good thing come of our despair? Come and see. I don’t want to seem Polly Anna about this; we have worldly needs that we must address. But thinking that addressing only those needs will somehow solve the bigger problem is foolish. The bigger problem, the problem that brings the most distress, is a  lack of faith. The immediate problem needs a resolution, but knowing that God had written your story before you came into existence and He has foreseen this very moment, should bring reassurance, hope for the future and a degree of patience.

Psalm 139:16, “You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.”

The outcome may not be what you envisioned. It may not be as timely as you would like. It may not be easy, but it will be best in the long term. The struggle remains a struggle, but it is no longer a fight you fight alone. The closer you are to Christ, the darker the forces against you, the more you need an army to fight beside you.

Joel 2:11, “The LORD utters his voice before his army, for his camp is exceedingly great; he who executes his word is powerful. For the day of the LORD is great and very awesome; who can endure it?”

The next time darkness overcomes you, close your eyes and see His mighty army surrounding you. When jealousy, hate, envy, fear, or anxiety consume your soul, take a minute to close your eyes, and see God’s glory all around you. Take command of all of God’s army with a powerful voice. God knows what we need; he will provide. We must remember that the battle is not a worldly battle over fear or material gain; it is a spiritual battle over our eternal soul.

We are a prize that the Lord will not surrender.

Ephesians 6:12, “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”

When God Seems Silent

I don’t know about you, but one of the most fearful times in my life is when God seems silent. The silence creates a vacuum of self-doubt and self-condemnation. It is a breeding ground for spiritual cancer. His silence generally is more about my not hearing, rather than Him not talking. More times than not, I don’t want to hear because I have my desires, and it is not His desire. Sometimes, it is a time of contemplation in which I need to consider all that He has said and weigh it against my desires.

There are many passages, especially in the Old Testament, that speak of God’s silence. Habakkuk laments, “Why are You silent when the wicked swallow up those more righteous than they?” Job questioned, “When He keeps quiet, who then can condemn?” David called out to God, “For if You are silent to me, I will become like those who go down to the pit.” Asaph begged, “O God, do not remain quiet; Do not be silent and, O God, do not be still.”

A time of silence from God is not a time when nothing is happening. It is time to dig deeper to understand our relationship with God and how it can be better. It is a time of self-examination. God does not stop talking; he changes tone, texture, and volume. Great speakers use changes in pitch, cadence, and volume to get the audience’s attention. Sometimes they shout because of the need for urgency. Sometimes they whisper to indicate intimacy and compassion. God is not limited to our tricks in communications; he is multi-modal. He has many channels.

 Ecclesiastes 9:17, “The quiet words of the wise are more to be heeded than the shouts of a ruler of fools.”

God speaks through the Spirit that we inherited as children of God. He speaks through scripture and wise words of Christian friends and authors. He repeats His message until we acknowledge hearing it. When God is silent, it is we who have gone deaf. It is we who pay more attention to the voices in our heads than the word of God. Our self-talk has more credibility than God’s word. Self-talk is not condemnation; it is the natural result of living in a fallen world.

Isaiah 55:8-11, “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.”

Our knowledge and vision are inferior to God’s; we craft solutions based on what we know or perceive. Those solutions drive our desire. God’s answer may be outside of our expectations or even our understanding. Jonah didn’t want salvation for those he saw as evil; he wanted condemnation. God saw it differently, so Jonah ran. How often do we run because what we want is not what we know God wants?

For most of us, the more significant issue is timing. I want what I want, and I want it now. I am in spiritual, emotional, or physical pain, and I want it to go away. But, there may be a lesson to be learned first. There may be a heart to be softened. There might be a soul to be saved. God knows our story; he wrote it. He knows what we are going through, and He knows what we can handle. His view is a view of eternity.

When God seems silent, remember:

Psalm 27:14, “Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”

Ecclesiastes 3:1, “To everything, there is a season and a time to every purpose under the heaven.”

2 Peter 3:8, “But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day.”

Lamentations 3:25-26, “The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeks him”

Know that God does not waste anything. He is always working on our behalf for our salvation. He longs to be in a deep, meaningful relationship with us. That can not happen in a vacuum. When God seems silent, be patient, look into your own heart for clues, seek direction from His Word, and wait. Do not wait passively as someone expecting a gift; wait actively as someone expecting a revelation.

Perceived silence from God is many times the birth of great movements. It is a time of renewal and growth. Do not fear it; strive to understand it. You will see that God is not silent; he may have just changed style to get us to listen closer.

C.S. Lewis said, “though our feelings come and go, God’s love for us does not.”

Waiting on God

Let me start with a short story about patience. On the very first visit to a prison, God helped me better understand patience when waiting on God. I went with Champions for Life, and I was in Broad River Correctional, Columbia, SC. I was standing next to the rail overlooking the cellblock below me. I was in this particular location to avoid speaking to the inmates. Because it was my first visit, I was uncomfortable, and I didn’t feel I had anything to share. So I was hiding in plain sight. I was there without really being there.

My thoughts were on a hundred things without landing on anything, fleeting moments of clarity that dissipated like the fog in the morning sun. I know they were there, without knowing what they were. Then I heard, “I have been praying for weeks that my lawyer would find a way to get me out of here.” This inmate had settled next to me, without making eye contact with me, and started talking to me. You see, he wasn’t a Christian, but he thought he would try out prayer. He didn’t expect anything, but he had hope. I was a Christian; maybe I knew the answer.

Jeremiah 29:12, “Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.”

The good news was that this was a conversation that didn’t require scripture memorization. This inmate didn’t know scripture. He had no preconceived theology. He didn’t even know if he had the right to expect an answer. He just made a statement. New evidence came to light that proved his innocence. But getting released was a process, not an event. A lawyer had taken his case and was working on his release. For two months, the inmate hadn’t heard a thing. That had to be incredibly depressing; to have spent years in prison knowing you are innocent, evidence finally surfaces proving your innocence, the release would come from outside the walls, and you were stuck inside.

I can’t remember the exact conversation as none of the words were mine. It went something like this; there was evidence to be reviewed, docket to be cleared, maybe hearts to be softened, liability to be assessed; God’s time is not our time. I remember his response; “Thank you, I prayed for encouragement, and He sent it through you.” That floored me. I couldn’t remember what I said; how could it have been encouraging. Was what I said even true?

1 John 5:15, “And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.”

What I took away from that weekend was to wait upon the Lord. I’m impatient, get it done, execution is everything type of guy. Ideas are a dime-a-dozen; success comes from following through. With my first visit to a prison, my challenge was that I wanted to experience changed lives, souls reborn. I wanted God to provide me with immediate fulfillment. I didn’t see this first visit as a step toward a new destination; it was the new destination. I fall into this trap all the time. I’m impatient about God’s plan for my life. Everything is significant, and I want to know why. I want instant feedback to confirm I am on the right path.

How do these seemingly false starts keep me on the right path? Why hasn’t this person or that person responded the way I thought they should? Why has nothing happened when I have worked so hard? I am waiting on the evidence that God is with me.

Mark 11:24, “Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

The second I ask, the prayer is answered. When Jesus saw the fig tree without fruit, he cursed it. But it did not die right away.

Mark 11:12-14, “The next day as they were leaving Bethany, Jesus was hungry. Seeing in the distance a fig tree in leaf, he went to find out if it had any fruit. When he reached it, he found nothing but leaves, because it was not the season for figs. Then he said to the tree, “May no one ever eat fruit from you again.” And his disciples heard him say it.”

Mark 11:20, “In the morning, as they went along, they saw the fig tree withered from the roots.”

The fig tree died from the root. It started dying the second it was cursed, but the evidence wasn’t clear until the next morning. God answers prayer the second we ask, but the fruit of that blessing may not be seen for some time. My impatience saps the joy out of that blessing. Sometimes when I don’t get what I want, when I want it, I stop looking and miss the blessing altogether.

Today I have a situation that I have prayed about for years. I have not prayed for a specific resolution, just that one happens. I want God’s will to be done. It ebbs and flows like the tide crashing over the shore; good days followed by bad days followed by good days—every fiber of my being screams out to walk away. I’m tired of it all. But a small, meek voice always cautions me to be patient; one day, God’s plan will be revealed. One day.

God may send someone to encourage you, He may not, but the blessing is already happening. Know that it is happening and know that God is faithful in all things.

Romans 12:12, “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.”