What Does it Mean to be Alive?

A life worth livingWhat does it mean to be alive? Is being alive the same as living? If you have breath in your lungs, why? God created you for greatness. Are you living up to God’s intent for you?

Isaiah 49:15-16, “Can a mother forget the baby at her breast and have no compassion for the child she has borne? Though she may forget, I will not forget you! See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are ever before me.”

Trouble in a Broken World

Troubles come, sometimes in waves. They are a product of a broken world. Sometimes that trouble is self-inflicted; other times it comes out of nowhere. But trouble does not define us; it refines us. It is one of the tools God uses to make us stronger and more relatable. We cannot speak into others’ lives with wisdom we have not earned. Unfortunately, most wisdom is born of suffering. It is regrettable how little we learn in prosperity.

Galatians 1:15, “But when it pleased God, who separated me from my mother’s womb and called me through His grace.”

Fearfully and Wonderfully Made

Given all I have been through in my life, including the unimaginable, which I not only survived but also thrived after, I still find my existence a miracle. There are 100 sextillion stars and planets in our known universe, and over eight billion people on this single spinning orb. And I am me, unique, perfect for my purpose, seeing, feeling, thinking, walking, and talking. I am the impossible. Trillions of cells in my body are continually renewed throughout my life, yet somehow I remain me. The new me retains all the attributes of the old me. I keep living. There is a reason for all of this.

Psalm 139:13-14, “For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well.”

The Weight of Uniqueness

One of the great lessons from the parable of the talents is the statement “to each according to his ability.” Our lives were not meant to mirror one another. We were always designed to be unique, and with that uniqueness come unique challenges. We tend to treat our challenges as greater than others’ because they are the only ones we have ever known, having lived only within this single life. They are the only challenges we have felt.

Purpose in the Midst of Pain

If every life is unique and purposeful, how do we recognize whether we are truly living according to that purpose? It is a prayerful question, not why this is happening to me, but God, what do you want me to do with what lies before me?

God promises us that we will never experience anything that is not already known to man.

1 Corinthians 10:13, “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man.”

But they are unique to us. Because we are unique, trouble and temptation affect us in distinct ways. Our experience can be “like” someone else’s, but never the same. We should not view others’ lives as an enviable path, because we don’t know the totality of their existence. We have not lived their life.

The path forward still exists. If you have breath in your lungs, you have purpose. God woke you up this morning because He has something for you to accomplish. You are standing because God wants you here and now. As dark as your life may seem at times, it is a light for someone else down the road.

Your Overcoming Is Someone Else’s Hope

 “Believe that, when you are most unhappy, there is something for you to do in the world. So long as you can ease another’s pain, life is not in vain.” ~ Helen Keller

It is not the challenge that gives hope; it is what you do with it that can lead someone to a better life. You are important to the person who is waiting for you in your future, just as someone is going through something that will echo in your life.

Your greatest testimony is not  memorized scripture, but a life that reflects the love of Christ.

Someone else’s survival may one day depend on what you choose to do with your suffering.

Romans 12:13, “Share with the Lord’s people who are in need.”

Love, Loss, and What Remains

Love, Loss, and What RemainsLove, Loss, and What Remains. Sometimes, for reasons I don’t always understand, life doesn’t just disappoint—it crashes. Not the hardship we expect or prepare for, but the kind that divides everything into before and after. A moment arrives—a phone call, a diagnosis, a goodbye you didn’t know was final—and life as you knew it vanishes.

What follows is not noise but silence. A black silence. Thought escapes us. The mind, so capable of solving problems and navigating difficulty, simply stops. It has been struck too hard, too suddenly, too completely. There is no immediate path forward, no reason to rise—only the weight of what cannot be undone.

LOVE

The source of this kind of devastation is almost always love.

We can make sense of physical pain. We can measure it, treat it, and endure it. But when something touches the heart—when love is broken, removed, or lost—the damage is different. Love creates attachment, identity, and meaning. When it is taken away, it is not merely a loss; it is disorientation. The mind searches for resolution, but none is to be found.

I would like to say that we heal over time. Sometimes we do. But sometimes we don’t heal completely; we learn to live with what remains. The greater the love, the greater the pain. Not feeling that pain would mean something far worse: that we had never loved deeply.

The privilege of loving carries the possibility of immense pain.

1 Peter 4:8, “Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.”

LOSS

I live with that pain. Fifteen years later, it still brings me to tears.

I never want to become the person who forgets—who buries it so deeply that the heart grows numb to its presence. That experience shaped who I am. At one point in my life, it was a driving light. It changed me and made me better.

Yes, this is mine to carry. It is something I never want to lose. Anything this powerful is meant to be remembered. I want that feeling to keep shaping me, not fade into something distant and harmless. When I feel its weight, I understand others’ pain in a way I never could before. What once seemed like it would destroy me has become a source of connection to the rest of humanity. It remains one of the darkest moments of my life. But I survived—and I continue to live.

If love has the power to break us, it also reveals something deeper about how we were made.

God created us to love and be loved. This is not a minor part of who we are—it is central to our design. It is the essence of Christ’s teaching. Love binds us together, gives meaning to our lives, and drives us toward one another. When directed rightly, it changes lives for the better. When withheld or broken, it leaves damage in its wake.

Psalm 147:3, “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”

But that damage does not define our worth.

Love lost has a way of making us feel unworthy of love. That is the lie it tells. If we believe it, it pulls us deeper into despair. But the truth stands in direct opposition to that lie: God’s love is not conditional. It is not withdrawn, and it does not fail as human love sometimes does.

1 John 4:19, “We love because He first loved us.”

He is present in the silence. He is present in the pain. Even when we cannot feel it, we are not alone.

WHAT REMAINS

I have come to see pain differently. Not as something to escape or erase, but as evidence. Evidence that something real existed. Evidence that love once took hold. If I had never loved, I would never have known this depth of feeling. That experience, however costly, would be absent from my life.

I would be less for it.

The pain remains, not as something to be feared but as something to be understood. It is part of what makes us human. And, in a way that is difficult to explain yet impossible to ignore, it is also part of what enables us to truly love again.

1 Corinthians 13, “If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.”

God Does Not Waste Pain

Pain with PurposeGod does not waste pain, or why do good people suffer? This isn’t a question born out of curiosity. It’s asked from hospital rooms, gravesides, broken homes, and silent prayers that seem unanswered. It’s not philosophical; it’s personal.

We question it when life no longer follows our expectations, when effort no longer shields us, when obedience no longer keeps us safe, and when goodness no longer guarantees security.

We consider something bad because it goes against our expectations of fairness. It challenges our belief that virtue should be rewarded with peace. But scripture never guaranteed protection from suffering. It assured us of God’s presence.

Matthew 5:45, “He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous.”

Rain doesn’t discriminate. Pain doesn’t check résumés. Suffering isn’t a judgment of character.

“God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains.” – C.S. Lewis.

Not because He enjoys our pain, but because pain is one of the few things powerful enough to break our illusion of control.

Called to Light

We are called to be light in a dark world. But light only becomes visible when darkness exists. If our lives were free of conflict, loss, or fear, our faith would be purely theoretical—polished and unrelatable.

No one looks to someone who has never suffered and asks, “How did you survive?” The credibility of hope is built in hardship. We become believable not because we avoided darkness, but because God met us there.

2 Corinthians 1:3–4, “Praise be to the God… who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble.”

Our wounds are not disqualifications; they serve as credentials.

Without challenges to face, we can’t demonstrate God’s power. You don’t grow strong by just sitting in a gym. You grow strong by pushing back against what resists you.

Strength isn’t given; it’s earned.

So, when we pray for strength and face difficulties, it doesn’t mean we are being ignored. We are being trained. When we pray for wisdom and encounter problems, it’s not punishment; it’s refinement. God is not creating a life of ease. He is shaping a soul that can endure.

James 1:2–4, “Consider it pure joy… whenever you face trials… because the testing of your faith produces perseverance.”

Pain Teaches

Sometimes suffering is straightforward; sometimes it teaches us.

We all make poor choices. A world without consequences would lack growth. If fire didn’t burn, we wouldn’t learn where danger exists. God’s commands aren’t fences to restrict us; they’re guardrails to keep us alive.

Ecclesiastes 7:20, “Surely there is not a righteous man on earth who does good and never sins.”

Correction is not cruelty. It is mercy with sharp edges.

Affects of a Broken World

And sometimes, suffering isn’t caused by our actions at all. It happens because we live in a broken world.

We are not isolated beings. We belong to a fallen creation where sin spreads outward. People hurt because they hurt themselves. Systems fail because they are built by broken hands. Even nature groans beneath the weight of what has been lost.

Jesus did not stand apart from this reality. He entered it, endured it, and took it in.

John 16:33, “In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

Not to escape it, but to overcome it.

The Decision Point

Every hardship presents a decision point. Will this moment define us or refine us? Through our decision, will we become bitter or useful? Will we close ourselves off or become a refuge for others?

1 Corinthians 10:13, “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to humanity… God is faithful.”

God doesn’t promise that we will always feel capable. He guarantees that we will never be abandoned.

Isaiah 43:2, “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you.”

Not if. When.

God does not waste pain. He repurposes it, transforming scars into testimony. He changes suffering into authority and brokenness into compassion.

Bad things don’t happen because God is absent; they occur where His presence becomes undeniable.